September 8, 2008
3 simple things that can make me smile all day long 
1) i did well in drama performance today. me n my partner-in, did a scene taken from keluarga 69. at first i was very worried because my scene with in is kinda short n simple. but we managed to work it out. plus we were given full marks by mdm rosalind! yeeepppeee!
2) kakak asked me to go back to her house during the weekend so that i can berbuka puasa with good n delicious food. she said “makanan kt bazar ttdi lg sedap… shah alam x sedap sgt. kalo teringin mkn pape blk la umah sy” … kakak also asked me whether i want to kirim anything from kedah n langkawi ( she’s currently there)… a big packet of m&m would do. hehehe…
3) ayah smsed me! recieving a text message from him is the happiest thing in this world. even though he only asked me about my balik kampung tickets, that is enough to make me smile da whole night. that also reminds me that he still cares about me. ayah sibuk2 tny when lecture ends, when i’m allowed to go back, whether abg syed has booked my ticket or not, mama dah cari ticket return ke belum… that is what ayah used to do… n he’s doing it again now. happy sangat!!!
September 6, 2008
for the last few months i was very eager asking my friends to vote for me at gua.com for pencarian kawan karina. i really want to win the competition so that i can act in kerana karina as karina’s friend. that would be like my stepping stone to start a career in acting.hohoho. tinggi plak angan2.
but now…
i feel sooo malas to continue my journey in the competition. there are so many things that running through in my head. tests, assignments, other problems. hahhh. i feel sooo rimas right now. rimas sangat.
joining the search for kawan karina is just like another burden for me. because i know the real reason why i want to win the competition is not for myself…but to make a person notices that i exist. stupid me!
but last night, bj (my good friend) made me realise how important the competiton is to me. when i told him that i want to quit, he quickly asked me to give him the link to gua.com so that he can vote for me. he said he will keep on voting for me because that is his promise.
thanks bj…
now, i’ve realised that i should not give up. after everything that my friends have done for me… giving up is the stupidest thing to do.
dearest friends,
thank u very much for supporting me. i don’t know how to repay u guys, n if i do i am not sure whether it’s enough if compared to what u guys have done for me. thank u.
*hugs n kisses*
September 6, 2008
schlect- that’s terrible/horrible in german.
i’ve sitted for my german mid term paper n… like i predicted i didn’t do quite well. the listening part was okeeey. boleh tangkap a few words n missed others. wahahaha. the writing was terrible!i couldn’t remember the name of countries in german, two occupations, da verbs n what not. damn!
i’m so dissapointed with myself.
i wish i could do better.
September 4, 2008
procrastinating…me…procrastinating…me…
i hate to procrastinate but that’s what i’m doing rite now… there are tons of assignments that need to be done… n tests.. don’t ever mention about it. they can drive me crazy. aaarrrgghhh!
because of da “p” word so many bad things happened to me. like:
1) almost had a fight with puan ushi because of bel assignment.
2) could not answer well in psycho test
3) screwed up phonetics test n missed da so-precious german class. damn!
4) have not prepared for german test. jeng n fira said susah giler. mati laaaa!
5) p.ramlee drama is kinda kelam kabut sikit. hope everything will go fine.
6) sakit kepala bcuz haven’t done observation assignment yet!!!
7) flu plak! i can’t take my flu medicine cuz i’m afraid it will make me fall asleep. i can’t sleep. if i do, byk keje xsiap!
hati xtenang. depressed.
wan… pls stop procrastinating. if you still do, you will just drive urself nuts!
August 10, 2008
1. woke up early in the morning to go to padang kawad. but end up knowing that we don’t have to be there in the morning. shoot!
2. purposely rejected phone calls from ayah cuz my sleep is more important to me (went to bed straight away after i got back from padang kawad). however, i answered his last call dlm keadaan mamai. i was still dreaming when i answered the phone. felt really bad cuz i made ayah n mama worried. they thought something bad happened to me. sorry!
3. tidied my room n the hall. i accidentally hit my face with the batang of the mop. causing me to have a short scratch on my right cheek. ouchh!
4. hungry. but i have no idea what to eat. like always. i know my taste bud is craving for something. teringin makan cekodok mama. waaaaaaaaa!
August 9, 2008
“mama nak celebrate birthday awak. awak tau x?”
what? seriously? it is something rare for mama wanting to celebrate one of her children’s birthday cuz she can hardly remember our birth date. but this year-for my birthday-she would like to have a birthday party??? kakak told me last night bout it n she thought i’ve been planning the celebration with mama but since i don’t, this is like a surprise birthday party i guess. but why??? mama n ayah (especially) hardly remembers my birthday. every year on august 20th i wish myself a very happy birthday with tears rolling down my cheeks. wanna know y? bcuz my parents always forget to wish me the two simple words - “happy birthday!” i don’t hope for gifts… i just want them to remember my birthday as mush as i remember theirs…
but this year, mama is acting weird… planning to celebrate my birthday is weird! i don’t want that. ayah won’t be around… so, there’s no use celebrating my birthday. in fact, for every birthday parties that i had… ayah would be invisible. if only u know how i feel ayah…
if mama wants to celebrate my birthday, let her be. i really don’t wanna hope so much cuz i’m afraid that it wil hurt my feelings in the end. so, i’ve taught myself to make birthdays as normal days. birthday wishes, birthday cake n birthday presents are just dreams… dreams that can never be real.
august 20th is just a day on the calendar.
August 3, 2008
last night there was a gig event at the main campus but it didn’t really attract me at 1st bcuz i’m not the person who is a die hard fan of indi bands. besides, eventhough i watched KAMI the drama, it doesn’t make me one of them. hahaha. however, thx to acad for convincing us to go there cuz according to him “ade baju yg korang mst suke”. yup. he’s certainly right. i’m never aware that there’s a label for indipendent clothing. they sell t-shirts with all kinds of cool designs n me n in bought ourselves two t-shirts each. haha. i like the cutting of the t-shirt. not so tight. they just fit me well n most importantly they can hide my hidden fats. wahaha. i wish i could buy at least five t-shirts instead but too bad i’m kinda broke this month. *sigh* so, two is the most that i can afford to have. not only that, we bought maflas too. yeepeee! i was very happy the minute i saw a booth selling dozens of maflas. well, i noe that i kinda like tertinggal zaman cuz people wear it as fashion accessory long long time ago bcuz back then i dun think it’s worth to invest on a mafla that costs me rm49.90. haha. but the one that we bought are soooo cheap. two maflas for rm15. they are worth to invest for right?
besides shopping there was a perfomance by couples (did i spell it right?) n other bands. nevertheless, we didn’t really concentrate on the performance as we are not really into indi musics. wahaha. in fact, we enjoyed shopping more. *wink*
on the way back from padang kawad two guys (who happened to be outsiders) in a blue chevy asked us the direction to pusat sukan n ‘in was kind enough to show him the way there. n guess what? he gave us his business card n that cute+budiman guy is an executive director of an oil n gas company. we went “whoaaaaaa”. wahaha. the guy even said ” kalau ade pape hal col la” . but nahhh. i will never start calling him 1st. too malu to do that. haha. n i thought to myself “why la this dude didn’t ask for our no. bg business card je.” but it’s ok. that card will be kept by ‘in as kenang-kenangan for her good deed.
August 1, 2008
it’s been ages since i really talk to my dad… i mean as in the daughter-father conversation. everytime he calls me we will only talk to each other for like 60 seconds- official matters only. same goes to his text messages. it is all about official matters and this is how i reply his smses-” ok ayah, thx.” everytime my mom calls me i will ask the very same question -” ayah ade x mama? ayah duk watpe?” - with the hope that my mom will get my hints and tell my dad how much i miss him and he will then call me. but… that is just a hope. eventhough nowadays we seldom talk to each other, i believe that he still loves me and will always love me as much as i love him. no matter what happens i still consider myself as daddy’s little girl.
dedicated to ayahanda tercinta…
For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I’ll be forever thankful baby
You’re the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You’re the one who saw me through through it all
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn’t speak
You were my eyes when I couldn’t see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn’t reach
You gave me faith ‘coz you believed
I’m everything I am
Because you loved me
You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I’m grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don’t know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn’t speak
You were my eyes when I couldn’t see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn’t reach
You gave me faith ‘coz you believed
I’m everything I am
Because you loved me
You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You’ve been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn’t speak
You were my eyes when I couldn’t see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn’t reach
You gave me faith ‘coz you believed
I’m everything I am
Because you loved me
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn’t speak
You were my eyes when I couldn’t see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn’t reach
You gave me faith ‘coz you believed
I’m everything I am
Because you loved me
I’m everything I am
Because you loved me
August 1, 2008
third semester, second year. whoa, times fly so fast right. hmm, new sem again… i wonder what will happen to me this sem. last sem i was bullshited badly by one fella or maybe more ( i shall not say the name here) and two sems ago the similar thing happened to me. unlucky me. but this sem … i hope people will stop spreading rumours about me and let me live in peace. amin…
this sem will be pretty tough for me… i guess. with the minor course which i eventually like and the third language which i’m forcing myself to like. haihhh… from counselling to literature and from mandarin to german… it doesnt sound like a good start right? nevertheless, i still have to go through this sem regardless of whether i like it or not because it is just another chapter in my life and most importantly… i’m doing this for my parents- especially my dad.
“ayah,
…doakan nurul agar nurul dapat melalui semester ini dengan tabah kerana nurul yakin bahawa doa ayah sahaja yang dapat memberikan nurul kekuatan untuk bertahan menempuh segala dugaan dan cabaran…. walau apa jua yang nurul lakukan, nurul lakukan semuanya kerana cinta nurul terhadap ayah…”
April 25, 2008
again, the TB syndrome came to attack me. *blush2… taufik batisah is not just a tall-dark-hansome guy, he has all the qualities of every girls’ MR RIGHT. *wink* i first knew him when i saw APM 2006 where he sang ‘Sombong’ n he danced really well in his white-top-to-bottom attire. he is soooo hot back then but he’s even hotter now. *wink* taufik is definitely not my type of guy because i basically love chinese/korean/japanese guys like lee dong wook, azwin andy…another hot men over there. hahaha. *wink* but there’s something about taufik that is very addictive. when i first told my mom and my lil bro that i like him, they really freaked out because they know well enough how much i like ’sepet’ guys. hahaha. they tried so hard to make me dislike taufik by giving comments like, “eeeee, die ni hitam la. xkn la kakak bleh suke die” my lil bro always say that to me everytime we see taufik on tv. well, he is dark but he’s not hitam like my lil bro said k. he’s a gorgeous-tall-dark-handsome-guy. HOT right?*wink* i guess i’m sooo into him because i like the fact that he’s a mix of indian n bugese, which i am also. hahaha… (trying so hard to have a good reason y i suddenly like a dark guy). i’m in love with him starting from the earlier semester in which i did a full research on him. my friends said i’m crazy but i belive that is the power of love. *blush* now he is totally different compared to when i last saw him in 2006. he has eventually grow bigger…i mean tougher thus making him looking much more hotter n driving me crazier! the latest time i saw him performed is during APM 2008. this explains why i really looked forward to see APM 2008. hahaha. dat nite, he sang ’sesuatu janji’ n i love the intro of dat song. u guys shud listen to it. he danced super good like he always does n he did a backflip too. which is very cool. i looikkke!!! he never fails to impress the audiences when he’s on stage. although people say he’s copying rain la, JT la, michael jackson la… i feel that he’s doing the right thing. our local music scene needs an artiste like him- smart, good looking, sings really well, composes songs and moves like JT. haha… how many male artistes in Malaysia are like taufik? not many right. so people, stop condemning him la. ok, enough lecture from me. to find more about taufik u guys can check him out at
hidup taufik batisah! xoxo…*wink*
